Bailey 💖

Since i got this little man we have just grown stronger and stronger together i think it's about time i told you all our story. 
Back in the days i had lost my job, i got very depressed and was spiraling down a dark hole i didn't want to eat of even get out of bed i got so ill, my husband at the time took me out for the day to the Cheshire dogs home link here i wasn't really interested in getting a dog i could barely look after myself but walking round i see a dog cowering in the corner he was a cavalier king Charles he looked petrified and scared out of his whits i bent down to the cage then all of a sudden this hug dog came at me and started barking like crazy.
We asked the woman if we could have a look at the king Charles she brought him out and he sat with me on the floor just leaning against me i new right then i was not leaving without him and he new it to, i think.
Getting him was a pain in the arse it was my husbands pay day so we new we had some money but none of the bank cards where working so we had to go back into town withdraw the money out then back to the dog's home where hopefully he still was.
We paid £100 for him because he is a full pedigree dog but the dogs home burned his papers. I spoiled him rotten got a him a giant bowls and toys and chew sticks he lives like a king.
Over time we noticed he wasn't so good with other dogs and when it came to humans he was literally a ankle biter, he had good manners.
You see he saved me and i saved him, he gets me up and out, he has me running across fields with him no matter what the weather, we run across beaches, i get wet sloppy kisses in the morning, he has leaned where the biscuit tin is. Recently we got him neutered and he has put on so much weight we are going to be doing more running i think, he farts and snores like a trooper he eats everything in sight and gets under you feet but i wouldn't have him and other way. This year i am working on getting a passport for him so i can take him travelling with me last time i went it was murder for me not having him around.
Here's a few cheeky moments since i got him. I have had him for 3 year i think now.



































Dear Grandad

Dear Grandad,

This is the first Christmas we have had with out you and it is so hard not having you around not just at Christmas but in general i don't know how Nanna is doing she seems to have turned a bit bitter it might be the time of year but i will ring her.
Things haven't got any better since you left us nanna hasn't even got a plaque or anything so its even harder to deal with it.
I hope to move away from barrow it's keeping me down and don't want that.

I turned 25, do you know what hurts the most i never got a card, message, text or a call from my mother or father, brothers, sisters or nanna. 
I got a card and some chocolates from Chris i think he is trying to make up for the family doing nothing he keep apologising but he has done nothing wrong.

I light a candle for you. I actually go to church and light a candle i sit and listen to people talk or i sit and read have some quiet time make me feel like i am closer to you. 
It hurts everyday, i am worried that i will forget you your voice, what you look like, how you laughed, you always kept the family together since you have gone it has got worse no one is talking there always arguing and bitching.

I really miss you, i cant think of you without crying, i see your face everywhere especially on people with white hair.
Merry Christmas Grandad i love you with every inch of my heart and soul.









It's my birthday

I will cry if i want to, cry if i want to.

Well people another year old but none the wiser still got hopes and dreams but never seem to get close enough to achieve them maybe 2013 will be better 
(I hope so coz 2012 hasn't been very nice)

well happy birthday to me you'r 25 years old today "make a wish"



Birthday wish list:
I wish that my nanna would stop being bitter 
I wish my mother would talk to me and stop lying to me
I wish i was *****
I wish i was ****


BOOK'S

Books I'm reading this month.
I am not the kinda person to have 1 book on the go at once, no no i have about 4 on the go and well i like to challenge my mind by doing that and yes i always carry all four around with me, i just wanted to share what i was reading lately with you maybe give you some ideas if you are stuck on what to read. 

Frankenstein by Mart Shelly - 


The strange case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde by Robert Stevenson -


The life of PI by Yann Martel -


The Sonnets by William Shakespeare - 


What are you reading this month?